undesirable moment

I hate it! wooohhh… I’m so angry right now! What a stupid thing happened! Tsk… Why in the world there are so many people who do very bad things and hurt their fellows?!!! I want to kill and torture them! Waaaahhh...Just because of that thing, I cry hardly and you know what, that’s the time I cry again so badly. I don’t know what to do but to cry and cry. Why is that thing happen to me? It's a very very unlucky moment I ever had! It's just like I was been tormented by many and I can't do anything to save myself. That's my first time to have that kind of experience and I was been traumatized because of that. I'm a type of person who likes to be independent most of the time but now, I'm afraid to be because now I know that I can't protect myself. I used to be a person who is strong and I know can manage my own self but because of that thing, I realize I cannot secure my own things when misfortune strikes. I'm not responsible enough and I hate myself for that. I'm so stupid and feeble-minded. It won't happen if I am so careful with my things. I hate myself so much. I'm ashamed of myself and feeling guilty for my parents because they discipline me very much and teach me substantially but I never mind those lessons which they taught to me. If only I can turn back the time, i'll definitely do it so that I will be more careful and disciple about myself but things can't go back. It's all ready a BYGONE and past is past.

What a heavy feeling I have right now. woooohh...It hurts me so much!! I can't accept the fact that I lost something which is very significant and useful to me. Honestly, I can't let go that moment and I won't ever be. If only I have a power to locate that nasty piece of work, i'll kill him! tsk... I really don't like it! I hope it won't happen again because if it will, I take a suicide. (just kidding! hahahaha...)