IMPATIENT, LIVID and TOO EMOTIONAL

Do you ever feel too much emotion that came to the point you can never express your anger because SOMETHING hinders it?! *sigh* rrrgggh… The thing that I hate the most is keeping my anger inside and could not been showed to everyone. I hate it so much!!! It kills me badly!! If killing is not a sin, then I will do it! Promise! I become so LIVID and FURIOUS everytime I cannot express my ANGER. It’s just like my heart will burst at the time my patience exceeds to the limit or I will cry hardly not because I was hurt but because I was been hindered to HURT by SOMETHING ELSE. I blackout and say everything I want TACTLESSLY when I am angry. I don’t really mind if I will hurt someone when my fury strikes because I think, that is much better. Is it evil much?! Not really! I think that is the real attitude of someone who is very irritated and upset. I really hate people who are very DOMINANT above the rest and who make me WAIT for NOTHING because I am so IMPATIENT in comes with it. I don’t like to be under with those people who are worse than me because they don’t have any right to oversee since they are worse. Right?! If they will rule, I think that is very IRONIC. Hayyy… There is still a heavy feeling of anger left inside of me that’s why I am so paranoid at this moment. I still think the times I became so livid. I want to take revenge since I was been thwarted. Woooohhhh... what a headache! *ouch* why in the world when I became so furious, it lasts for a very long time, I almost lay the blame of my anger to other things or to other people and I can’t get over about it?? Waaahhhh… *grumble* If I can only do everything I want, may be I will be satisfied but it’s not the way it is that’s why I still can’t get over about the fury I had since I did not express it. *moan & sigh*