behind the TOUGH wall

TOUGH?? may be I am but not really...I'm trying hard to show to everyone that I can be a strong person in everytime of my life but honestly behind the TOUGH PERSONALITY of mine is a person who is very weak and is needing someone to depend on when trials strike. I always depend on myself and also to GOD every time I have problems but of course as a person, I need someone who will support and encourage me. Someone who will be there for me and will make me feel that I don't have any problem at all. I'm a type of person who doesn't like to show to other people that I was hurt because I don't want them to sympathize me. I always say that I can do something all ALONE but honestly I'm just trying to do it without knowing my capabilities in that thing. May be I am TOO EMOTIONAL and SENSITIVE to many things that's why I wanted to be INDEPENDENT. I don't like people who will leave me after they asked something from me or will just be there and approach every fun and happy moments. I HATE it badly!! rrggghh...>_< ... I want a give-and-take relationship to other people. If they will talk, then I will also talk. If they will listen, then I will also listen. I wanted FAIR! I would rather to choose to be alone in this world than to be with everybody else who will judge me without knowing my intention and my entire self.