A RESPONSIBILITY

SCARED, ANXIOUS, NERVOUS, SAD, and HAPPY...these are my feelings which I have right now. waaahhh... Responsibility/obligation/duty will give to me. Is it ironic to feel those emotions? it's just like a weird stuff to have those kinds. *sigh* I don't know what to do. I am in the state of COMMOTION again. why? tell me, oh why? (hahaha...crazy!) I'm scared, nervous, sad and anxious coz I don't if i will perform the given task to me very well. I have lots of things to do aside from that and I have a doubt to myself if I can really do my job very well. SHOCKS! so help me GOD all I want! >_< ... Moreover, I don't know if I will be followed by my members if ever I will lead all of them. Actually, I know some of them don't like me. It's fine as long as they will respect me if I will stand in front of them and lead. Honestly, it hurts to know that some people don't like me. I know I can't please everyone but all I want is to be respected and accepted even if some people don't like me. =( ... I want to be close and befriended to them because I will be the one to handle and lead them. My goodness! too many conflicts! I hate it! >_< ... Anyway, if there is a negative side, of course there is also a postive side. ^_^ ... I AM HAPPY TO HAVE IT because i know it is a BLESSING to me and not all people are given a chance to take that kind of duty. hehehehe^_^ ... Aside from that, I will grab the opportunity to be close with them since I will be the one to handle. hahaha=p (bouncing back! woinkz...>=D) I hope that they will know who i really am because I'm a type of person who gives important to friendship and closeness... =))