For them, I'm nothing and just somebody who aspires to be one of them...Yeah, I admire them so much because of their high class and superb talents that came to the point I wanted to join with them but something changes my mind...I hate people who are not true to their neighbors...they are like a camouflages who hide their true identities and real agendas so that others won't notice their actions and can get their want without the awareness of others...They throb and never mind the hurt feeling of others just to get what their want...Sacrifices that I had done are ignored and they did not give any importance even a little…I’m so stupid for believing that I can be one of them…It hurts me so much because all my pride is wasted…I don’t want to remember it anymore but things always went coming back , I can’t help it to reminisce those stupid things…I sacrifice the most important doings in my life but there is no exchange for such actions I had done and for that I consider myself as the worst person ever...Actually, I try everything to show my best to them but still it did not work...I know I can't please everybody and I know also that I can't be the person who they wanted but I'm really trying...I've always been neglected by many but of course, I'm trying not to show that I'm affected and trying to be strong so that I won't be a loser in front of them...I want to take a revenge by having great achievements but how can I have that kind of thing if I am nothing & worthless for others, easily forgotten by many and i don't acquire any extraordinary thing?!...How foolish I am!!
Haayyyy....Thank God, He is still the source of my strength...And without Him, my family and the people who believe in me, may be I will not continue doing things to achieve my goals...Gosh! I'm so dramatic..hehehe=p...but seriously speaking, that's true! 'til here....
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